As you know my dad passed away in June -- 3 days after my birthday -- and I had the fun of cleaning out his house, putting it for sale, and finally selling it.
The day after Christmas one of dad's good friends, and a good friend of the family, passed away. I miss Tom. Knew him for years.
On March 22nd my Aunt Betty passed away. Aunt Betty was one of my dad's older sisters. I loved her so very very much. After my mom died she was like a 2nd mom. I would have never gotten through dad being sick or his passing without her. After daddy died she called me every night to see how I was doing and to wish me a good night. Well every night until she got really sick right around Christmas.
Losing Aunt Betty so close to losing daddy has been really painful. I couldn't get myself to go to a funeral. In fact I missed Tom's funeral, the funeral of a cousin (I barely knew her but still), I am not ready for funerals yet.
My brother still isn't speaking to me. But it doesn't hurt near as bad as it did at first.
A cute little cat showed up hungry in my yard back in January. She is short haired, black with a little white on her chest. I named her Friday and she now lives indoors with me and the other cats.
I have got to figure out how to get a life. I have no friends, the person I could turn to passed away, I need to get out of the house but I don't know where to go or what to do. I have to watch spending money. I do go to Wednesday morning Bible study but it isn't enough.
I get so lonely. I never knew just how painful being lonely could be. It really hurts your heart. It is just as painful, if not more so, as depression. Add the two together and I am a basket case more often than not.